What to do, what to do?

So there is this problem. I guess it's not something unique to myself. But I really don't know what makes me happy. By myself. I know what hubs can do to make me happier. And the things I would like to have that would I would be happy about having. Well of course this puts a strain on my relationship. And not talking to my husband makes things all the worse on my end. You know how we women are. Well anyway so the other day I called my best friend and cried and vented to her. She offered to let me stay with her and her fiance for a week or so to give me some time away from everything stressful to think things through. I talked to my husband. And we agreed that taking her up on that offer may be a good idea. So tomorrow I'll be calling her and we'll be working out the logistics hopefully.

Athena, Hubby and everything else.

Well we have now had Athena for close to a month. In the short time that we have had her, I've taught her a few commands. Sit, jump, no, stop, shake, and go. Now the absolutely most important thing she has to be taught...potty training..she hasn't caught onto yet. Although I have to admit I havent been very adamant about taking her out. Some things she's learned on her own: how to carry things around, how fun it is to play with things that aren't toys, chewing, and climbing onto the couch. Now, she is very friendly and tries to play with our two yr old teacup chihuahua, Molly, but Molly with have none of that. She has decided she doesn't like Athena at all. But our one yr. old cat, Jester, loves to play with the puppy. Now he has someone to dig into the trash with. LOL. : / Today we put Athena out in our dog pen for the first time. We left her out there for about an hour or two. Gonna get her used to it before we leave her out there all day or any time at night or when we are gone. She did pretty well. She did try to dig out once but gave up before she got through. She howled and whined, but eventually she was quiet and entertained herself I assume.

Today I had to take hubby to the ER. yesterday he was trimming some tree at work and the branch he was working on twisted and hit him in the side of the head. He didnt tell me anything until about 1 am this morning when he was going to bed. He told me that he was knocked unconcious breifly but had no other signs of anything wrong until about 8 pm. He said his vision started getting blurry and then he started feeling dizzy later on. So he thought that he could just sleep it off, but this morning when he was getting ready for work, he fell because he was so dizzy. So I had to call his mother and ask to borrow her car so that I could drive him to the ER. we got in a room about 11 am. at about 12 pm they took him to get a CAT scan. At about 4 pm they finally got back to us with the results. Basically, he has a minor head injury (concussion most likely) it's nothing too serious but i'm to keep an eye on his behavior. should take only 2-3 days for him to recover.

Well last week I got a call from David's Bridal saying my dress has arrived. So last Saturday we went and picked it up. When I got home and put it on (of course). the style and the length and the color and my blonde hair all combined made me think of Alice from Alice in Wonderland. NOT A NEGATIVE THING. lol. The dress looks soooo good. I can't wait to wear it in April!!

Last friday the group I'm supposed to be dieting with met for the first time. We talked about the foods we could eat, the foods we couldnt eat, the portions we should be eating, how much water to drink a day and tons of other things. We also weighed in and took measurements. I'm not going to post any of those details on here because, frankly, it's quite embarassing. But anywho, I have NOT been doing very well. It's just so hard. Because it not only affects me but also my husband, who doesnt need to diet nor does he want to. and he doesnt really want to make an changes to help me out either. he still wants to go out for pizza and mexican food. it's killing me. another thing i'm not doing like i'm supposed to is writing down what I eat. It's just too tedious for me. counting calories, sodium, carbs, fats. I just dont feel like it. I'm sure I'm going to be scolded this Friday when I go to weigh in. So maybe I'll do better next weekend. ugh.

My best friend's wedding LOL

well while my best friend was in town doing wedding stuff, we went to david's bridal for my to choose and buy my moh dress and find a flower girl dress for her adorable little cousin. well talking to her today i decided to look up what shoes i'm going to wear. i found a pair at payless that arent too bad. so here is the dress and the shoes.

Now I just have to find accesories. i have like...none. lol

i'm going to wear my hair in a side ponytail, curled with a headband. so let the search begin. lol.

so the diet thing has been going well. my mother's best friend decided her new year's resolution was to change her diet to a healthy one and to lose weight. well she was doing it alone. and i've been doing it alone too. but mom was talking to her about me starting a diet too and one thing led to another and now there is a group. a couple of thier other friends, and my mom are going to start a diet too. i think that working out will be part of this too. but we'll be starting next friday. there will be a new scale bought and print outs of what we can eat. we'll meet once a week. i believe every friday. it's nice to not be doing this alone.

Change is a-comin'

Well my husband has decided to join the army. How do I feel about this? Confused. Selfish. Scared. Supportive. I've hard. I never imagined I would become an army wife...just not something I expected for my life. But he's always wanted to be in the military, and he found out a few months ago that he no longer has a heart murmer so he now can. I don't know. But I'm gonna stick by his side and support him whatever may come.

As for my change....My clothes are already fitting differently. I dont feel bloated all the time. And I feel better. My leg doesnt hurt as much. And I've already started in on making a portfolio for flower arranging. Here is my first pic.

no my camera isnt the best, but I think it's a beautiful picture of a beatiful arrangement. thanks to my hubby for the flowers to arrange. lol.

My Career Decision

So last weekend I was helping my friend do a mock up for her upcoming wedding. it was to help make a decision about candles on the tables at the reception. well to do it completely she bought a flower boquet ( i feel i spelled that wrong.) well she was going to arrange the flowers but somehow I wound up doing it. So when i was done, she looked at it and complimented me by saying I could probably get a job in a flower shop. When she said that I was reminded that when I was about 10 years old and decided I wanted to be a writer I also decided to eventually own a flower shop. I had forgotten that a long time ago. Well... I've been giving it some serious thought and well, I could do that for the rest of my life. Arrange flowers that is. It's something creative that doesnt take a long time to complete so I feel like I actually accomplished something. It's hands-on. And I've always loved flowers. I've always loved gardening. Even when I was only 3 and 4 years old I would pick a nice bouquet of wildflowers and bring them to my mother or grandmother all arranged and pretty. On holiday occasions, I would arrange a centerpiece for my grandmothers table when I was older. So...like I said, it's something I feel I could do for the rest of my life. Hubs knows a woman in a nearby small town that owns a flowershop. She was his neighbor where he grew up. He offered to talk to her. I've been told before it's difficult to get a job in a flower shop, but I'm really going to try. There is also a flower shop right at the end of my road so I'm thinking of going up there one day and talking to the owner. Maybe ask questions about getting into the business. Maybe I can get some really good advice. Mom suggested putting together a protfolio. I think that is a great idea and as soon as i can get pictures off my camera to free up some memory I'll be hitting that project pretty hard. And there it is my 2nd big project of the year. (sidenote: I've gotten a good bit done on my crochet....it's starting to look like a blanket.) So if I can get a job at a flower shop I would be so thrilled. Even if it was only a few hours a week, I would enjoy it and enjoy learning more about the art. Then maybe one day, a bit down the road, I could own and operate my very own successful flowershop.

The Diagnosis

Yesterday was my doctor's appointment. I waited 3 months. Well the dr. said that something either cartiledge where my back and hip bones meet or the piriformis muscle (one of the butt muscles) is inflammed and pressing on my sciatic nerve. The easier to repair would be the muscle. so that's what i'm hoping it is. anywho. I was prescribed an anti-inflammatory. And some stretching exercises.
And we talked about me not being able to conceive so far. So the doctor put me on a diet. lean meats, fruits and veggies and whole wheat. only water. nothing else. sheesh. he said no pasta...that's mostly what we eat. lol. oh well....i want to have a baby. so anyway. yesterday i ate a sub from subway. whole wheat, turkey, lettuce, tomatoe, no cheese...omg, pickles, olives and mustard. and salad with baked chicken last night. and for breakfast a banana and yogurt. so i'm going to document what i eat for the next month. mostly to hold myself accountable. well anyway that's all.

Sorry for the lapse.

Well the headline for today is that today is my doctor's appointment. Yay!! Maybe I can finally get my back problem taken care of.
Next is that my best friend is back in Texas. : (  I wish that she was still here along with her future hubby also our friend.
Now...I love my new puppy...dont get me wrong....but...ahhhhhh I just wanna choke her out!! she tries to eat EVERYTHING. which is what puppies do...but...gah. she ate paintballs. wtf. she isnt potty trained yet either. so she potties EVERYWHERE. and she's not used to be alone at night yet...so she whines at night. and it wakes hubs up and he gets grumpy. It'll be nice when she's old enough to put outside in the pen. As I type she is running off with some peice of clothing to chew on. ugh.
Well... I guess that's it. Not so interesting. But after my dr. appt. I'll blog again and let y'all know what the dr. says.